Guilty Adventures

When people leave... when we leave our homes, we decide to go on a journey. There is a plan. There is a goal. Perhaps there are many goals? It depends where you are going. The arrival happens and we go to work. We work on having fun. There are tasks that need to be met everyday. If something doesn't get done, it must be done the next day. There are only so many days on an adventure because it's not long term. We know that it is eventually going to be over. So the tasks that are planned must be completed before we leave. However, not everything can always be completed. Only so much can be done in that certain amount of time. So we try our best to complete every goal we set for our self. The only problem is—even though we accomplished a lot of the things we wanted to do—is that at the end of the excursion we find that we really didn't accomplish everything.

It wasn't on the list. It was created during our time on the adventure because of other changes that happened to occur. Therefore, I think about the question: how can we end up being disappointed on the way back? You did everything you set out to do. Everything you planned on doing was accomplished but you created more new things after you had arrived. The original plan that you created you deviated from. It was the plan that you devised and made sure it was perfect. Spending time thinking about all of the duties and activities of this journey. But still, on the way back home you are left with a small amount of regret. And over what? You accomplished everything you set out to do, yet when you arrive home you have depressing thoughts and regrets about what you would have done differently? That isn't logical. If you thought hard for the correct game-plan and it worked, why would you be disappointed after?

We strive for routine and comfort, only to scoff at retuning to it. Perhaps, what is even more stranger is that a person was forced to go on the adventure. They were not allowed agency of any sort. Have you ever been mad to go somewhere? So that person is forced to leave, not wanting to go. Then they arrive and a different routine sets in. People like a different routine every now and then. Nevertheless, it is still a routine and the routine is to follow the plan. When plans aren't followed correctly, people tend to become frustrated and unhappy. This time, however, all boxes were checked. Everything was accomplished, yet, on the way back from the adventure, there seems to be one thing that you would have done differently. Desire doesn't make much sense because what you accomplish is never enough. People made up words like “content” to make themselves feel comfortable. People will sum up an experience by saying, “it is what it is.” Why do we feel depressed to go home? Time. The longer a person is gone from home the more they don't want to return. But that depends on where you go and the reason you are going.

And that is why some people don't even have one.